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cause of what happened to you?

[notrosecolored]

Partially because of what happened to me recently. Partially because of some much older shit. It stacks.

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pretty sure it's called trauma

[notrosecolored]

It is. But sometimes it's unrelated traumas and sometimes it's 'been possessed by a 'god' more than once.

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fucked you up, huh?

[notrosecolored]

I'll be fine. I'm just... really tired.

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yeah
been there myself

[notrosecolored]

The real universal amongst mutants - really tired by 20

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i'm not any expert on relationships
i fuck mine up here pretty much all the time
maybe that's just how i am
but you do you
you know?
you need to run
then run
you need to sleep it off
sleep it off
fuck what anyone says or thinks

[notrosecolored]

Logan's all but yelling 'we need you' in my face. As much as I am loathe to admit it - he's doing it right.

My submissive also drugged me into about 12 hours of sleep. It helped.

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bet he is
like i said
do whatever you need to
you don't owe people shit here

[notrosecolored]

Did you ever use Pyro as your name?

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yeah
why?

[notrosecolored]

Just curious. Do you still use it?

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i did when i first arrived over a year ago
then i went with john
but i'm still pyro
it's complicated

[notrosecolored]

What about it's complicated?

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i did a lot of bad shit with that name

[notrosecolored]

But it still feels like you?

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it is me
i didn't do that bad shit under the influence or when i was possessed
it was me

[notrosecolored]

First of all, possessed or not - it was still me. I still made choices.

Secondly, how people see themselves changes. Insert all that shit you said bout deciding who we are while we're here, here.

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i murdered people and i didn't care
i still don't care
i killed two sin guards here last month
that's the pyro in me

[notrosecolored]

What's the John?

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he's some loser romantic at heart that likes to write
whose parents didn't want him and were shit
who can never find a place to fit in even among mutants
he's a runaway and keeps running even when people here care about him

[notrosecolored]

That might be the most self-aware and oddly poetic thing I've ever heard.

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you're welcome