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[notrosecolored]

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[notrosecolored]

It's a long, complicated story but the short version is, ultimately, that I love her and she's not 'bad' - just not someone who should have ever been in my head, much less wholly in mine.

She isn't anymore.

She is still with Jean just fairly...tethered here.

and I'm not your opposite, but our similarities are a little alarming.

I was also possessed by what amounts to 'death incarnate' once, but that was less 'god' and more 'crazy mutant with a desire to start wars and an obsession with survival of the fittest. Him, we got an exorcist for.

[chrisisofaith]

How many people do you love Scott?

At least she and Jean are managing at least? I’ve only been possessed once and it wasn’t a good time at all, I tried to kill my friends.

And I don’t know, sounds like a few gods I know. Mostly evil ones.

[notrosecolored]

I don't know. Three, probably.

I was in jail for a reason; I did more than try.

[chrisisofaith]

You’re a mess.

I’m sorry. But they put you in jail for being possessed? Why in all the hells would they do that?

[notrosecolored]

Because I killed someone.

And also was responsible for what possessed me being there at all.

And chose to be the person who took over all of Phoenix instead of allowing her various parts to be driven into a different host.

It's a long story.

It doesn't matter.

[chrisisofaith]

Sounds like it matters if you’re blaming yourself for every little bit of it.

[notrosecolored]

I am not blaming myself.

[chrisisofaith]

Oh so the literal ’it was all my fault’ was a lie? Or maybe this just now was the lie?

Don’t try feeding me whatever stock crap you feed those who follow you, Scott, no time for it.

[notrosecolored]

No. It was literally the result of my actions and decisions around a situation that is and was my responsibility.

Killing Charles less so, but it isn't... false blame.

[chrisisofaith]

And not a soul otherwise? No other hand nor head nor heart involved? Impressive.

CW: suicidal ideation.

[notrosecolored]

Being responsible for that fight and all those people is literally what has kept me alive for the better part of 20 years.

Let me have this would you?

[chrisisofaith]

Your sanity loss, think you need to punch more things or get laid more, though.

Best friend back home’s kinda like you, takes everyone’s safety and such on himself. When he fights, he gets to lose his shit and rage on everything until it’s pulp and his wife suspends him in vines and fucks his brain out so

Might consider learning something.

[notrosecolored]

that's how things worked with the girlfriend that came after Jean. Her name is Emma. I miss her.

[chrisisofaith]

A good women to have. I’m sorry you don’t.

Hey, you’ve been a sport about punching me and taking shit, so I have an offer:

I’ll stop harping at you about one but not neither so take your pick:

-keeping your head on straight
-meeting your quota regularly

I think you could solve both with one, for the record, but I’m not your nanny

[notrosecolored]

Nag about quota. It'll be easier to blow off or actually meet expectations but I'll stay in 'willing to hit you but not actually try to murder you'

[chrisisofaith]

Wonderful

Then I have a proposition

[notrosecolored]

Which is?

[chrisisofaith]

I’ll tie you up in the air and fuck you with whatever you’d like.

Among other things. There’s options.

[notrosecolored]

How did you manage to leap from being me to being my girlfriend in this conversation?

[chrisisofaith]

I’m versatile and flexible

[notrosecolored]

What you are is confusing.

[chrisisofaith]

Yeah are you into it or not?

[notrosecolored]

I'm definitely into it.

[chrisisofaith]

Good. If you and your girlfriend used to play, then you’ve an idea of what you like, yeah?

You gonna be difficult about telling me?

[notrosecolored]

You do remember last time we tried to have sex, right?