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[notrosecolored]

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[notrosecolored]

I contracted the son I mentioned's partner and they're all adults. Most of them are older than me. There are scenarios here I wouldn't want but the sex isn't the awkward part, it's just that I hate them.

What's the drama?

[fireshow]

you hate your kids?

you're x-men whether you align yourself with them or not currently
they always have drama
tell me i'm wrong

[notrosecolored]

I'd hate the scenarios not my kids.

You're not. I actually had an X carved into me. I am the X-men in a lot of ways. Even when I'm not. It's why I exist.

[fireshow]

was worried for a sec there

pretty sure you exist cause your parents had sex
this sounds like some this is my purpose/destiny shit

[notrosecolored]

One of my favorite things about you is that you don't actually know anything about my life before I came here. It's very occasionally frustrating.

No predetermined destiny bullshit is involved - I promise.

[fireshow]

what else do you like about me?

still sounds like a hell of a lot of weight to put on your shoulders

[notrosecolored]

You don't hate me, you've got a good sense of humor, and you're smart.

The alternative wasn't better. It's fine.

[fireshow]

nothing shallow?
wow

citation needed

[notrosecolored]

Sorry?

Remember what I said about Logan all but yelling 'you are needed' in my face? That.

[fireshow]

i'll drink my sorrows away

i'd say fuck him but you probably would so

[notrosecolored]

First of all: Yes. I would.
Secondly, you're not understanding. It is the right thing to say to me. It isn't healthy. I know that, but it's what works.

[fireshow]

gross
not healthy methods is what does it for you, huh?

[notrosecolored]

Not as a kink.

[fireshow]

you actually got some of those?

[notrosecolored]

I really wish I had a picture of Emma, but yeah. My sex life hasn't been vanilla in a long, long time.

[fireshow]

tell me one

[notrosecolored]

Why?

[fireshow]

cause we're friends chatting
i'll tell you one in return

[notrosecolored]

Blindfolds.

[fireshow]

face-fucking

aren't blindfolds just a thing for you though?
like if you lose your glasses or whatever?

[notrosecolored]

Way more complicated than that. I'll use one if I have to and I have, but they also make me feel really vulnerable and scare the shit out of me.

[fireshow]

makes sense
losing your sight and all

[notrosecolored]

Losing my sight and being disarmed.

[fireshow]

there was this camp we got shipped off to last year
they collared us
it de-powered us
felt way too close to home and what the humans wanna do to us
i freaked out
like
it fucked me up real bad to be disconnected from my mutation like that
i burned my hands trying to control fire
it took me a long time to even start to get over that
that's one of my fears
being powerless to even protect myself from people who want to hurt me

[notrosecolored]

Given crap parents and the number of people who want us dead, that's a pretty solid fear.

I've heard about various incidents of them depowering people. Sounds terrible.

For what its worth the blindfold cuts off the optic blasts. It scares me when it's necessity, but even there.... that's the visible part of the mutation. It's not part that losing would create the biggest problem for me.