[ It's hard to form a solid relationship with someone if fear's involved. He wouldn't have blamed Scott if he were, especially after what he's done to him. But it's warming, truly, deep in his black heart to know he can approach Scott at his worst, and the man will feel no trepidation. ]
My most established partners are a woman who is host to a cosmic entity capable of wiping out life on entire planets, and a guy who has your healing ability but is always armed. I can kill a whole lot of people literally blinking wrong.
You're not a maniac. You're slightly sadistic and massively self-loathing and obsessive.
[ Only Scott could make him regret implanting him with an emergency beacon. But the promise that Midnighter would always be there for anyone who calls forces him to answer. ]
What's wrong?
[ It's for emergencies, so he keeps up that farce. They both know differently, though. ]
[ The big relaxing breath he takes in when Scott touches him is telling. He's easy like Scott always tells him, no matter how pathologically Midnighter denies it.
The words, "I'm just dandy," are waiting on his tongue, but it's an insult to them both. It only makes him look stupid, doesn't it? So instead he says nothing where he sits looking up at Scott. A calculated decision in a strange battle. ]
[ Damn. What a counter attack. He may be an open book about his achievements, his triumphs, his strengths, the things that make him weird and interesting to a normal man, but not what truly hurts him and makes him weak. ]
I hate myself.
[ It's not quite an admission. Almost a revelation, or a question for a man that knows him well. ]
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Date: 2023-02-14 07:11 pm (UTC)1/3
Date: 2023-02-14 07:23 pm (UTC)but no im genuinely curious
i want to get all up in your psyche
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Date: 2023-02-14 07:24 pm (UTC)3/3
Date: 2023-02-14 07:24 pm (UTC)[ HA! He's so fucking funny! Scott. Scott, he's funny, isn't he? He has his finger on the pulse of hip kid memes. ]
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Date: 2023-02-14 07:26 pm (UTC)You don't scare me at all, actually.
I think the only thing I'm still afraid of is losing control of myself and killing people.
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Date: 2023-02-14 07:36 pm (UTC)thats good to hear
[ It's hard to form a solid relationship with someone if fear's involved. He wouldn't have blamed Scott if he were, especially after what he's done to him. But it's warming, truly, deep in his black heart to know he can approach Scott at his worst, and the man will feel no trepidation. ]
ok
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Date: 2023-02-14 07:38 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2023-02-14 07:44 pm (UTC)honey
baby
im a maniac
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Date: 2023-02-14 07:46 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2023-02-14 07:49 pm (UTC)just
glad to hear theres no hesitation
i dont get that much
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Date: 2023-02-14 07:52 pm (UTC)You're not a maniac. You're slightly sadistic and massively self-loathing and obsessive.
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Date: 2023-02-14 08:00 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2023-02-14 08:02 pm (UTC)[After half an hour. ]
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Date: 2023-02-14 08:04 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2023-02-14 08:06 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2023-02-14 08:17 pm (UTC)i can just turn it off
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Date: 2023-02-14 08:24 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2023-02-14 08:30 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2023-02-14 08:31 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2023-02-14 08:40 pm (UTC)What's wrong?
[ It's for emergencies, so he keeps up that farce. They both know differently, though. ]
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Date: 2023-02-14 08:42 pm (UTC)You tell me.
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Date: 2023-02-14 08:56 pm (UTC)The words, "I'm just dandy," are waiting on his tongue, but it's an insult to them both. It only makes him look stupid, doesn't it? So instead he says nothing where he sits looking up at Scott. A calculated decision in a strange battle. ]
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Date: 2023-02-14 08:58 pm (UTC)[ Only said after a bit of a pause to see if Mid is going to find something to say. ]
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Date: 2023-02-14 09:02 pm (UTC)I hate myself.
[ It's not quite an admission. Almost a revelation, or a question for a man that knows him well. ]
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Date: 2023-02-14 09:04 pm (UTC)[ Gentle, but steady and still holding onto Mid, physically. ]
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