[Chris looks over, brow raised, thinking of what Scott had said of his kid before remembering it wasn't the home-grown kind.]
You should. People aren't always the worst of their parents, you might surprise yourself. [He waves his hand vaguely in Scott's direction.]
Don't take this example with the one here to heart, that's a....weird example, Duplicity's no place to test a father's mettle.
And I just mean everyone else in my life knew my parents or knew the name 'Sonom' and it meant something to most, good or ill, but it never meant much to me. I was four whe my parents died, I don't know them. I don't really care that they were killed aside from what I was told it ought to mean.
[ Scott just basically dismisses the whole thing about him as a father. It's complicated, it's not all about him and he lacks the energy to get all of that into words. He'd probably choke and they'd be back to stream of consciousness blurting and exhausting himself with frustration-
and he lacks the desire to go there for a hypothetical ]
That makes sense. It isn't as though they were there to mean anything to you, or you remember who they were to miss, and the name sounds more like a burden than anything else.
[ Scott makes a low noise in his throat and his next question might seem like a change of topic - or a statement more than question - but it's neither.
Honest. ]
You're getting more physically affectionate.
[ The fingers on his jeans, he means. It feels new. Or is he just noticing?]
![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
timeasmymeasure
no subject
Date: 2022-11-27 03:33 pm (UTC)I was fucked up enough that I decided not to have my own kids. I have bigger things to be more fucked up about, more generally.
What do you mean you don't take your parent issues personally?
no subject
Date: 2022-11-29 05:22 am (UTC)You should. People aren't always the worst of their parents, you might surprise yourself. [He waves his hand vaguely in Scott's direction.]
Don't take this example with the one here to heart, that's a....weird example, Duplicity's no place to test a father's mettle.
And I just mean everyone else in my life knew my parents or knew the name 'Sonom' and it meant something to most, good or ill, but it never meant much to me. I was four whe my parents died, I don't know them. I don't really care that they were killed aside from what I was told it ought to mean.
no subject
Date: 2022-11-30 12:16 pm (UTC)and he lacks the desire to go there for a hypothetical ]
That makes sense. It isn't as though they were there to mean anything to you, or you remember who they were to miss, and the name sounds more like a burden than anything else.
no subject
Date: 2022-12-01 07:24 pm (UTC)I'm nobility and a king in my world. My name is a title as much as any actual one.
[And he was amassing a few at this point.]
So, yeah...but I've never had much say in it, it just is. Except here.
no subject
Date: 2022-12-06 04:42 pm (UTC)Honest. ]
You're getting more physically affectionate.
[ The fingers on his jeans, he means. It feels new. Or is he just noticing?]
no subject
Date: 2022-12-09 02:33 pm (UTC)I'm more comfortable with you.Simple as that.
[Not exactly a simple thing, but still. Truthful. More comfort, trust, and care came with more physical affection when Chris can spare it.]
no subject
Date: 2022-12-09 02:48 pm (UTC)I'm Glad.
[ Because he's more comfortable with Chris, too and... just likes him. It's good. That's all.]