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[notrosecolored]

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[overconfidently]

( for a second he was worried scott might take that as nate thinking he might hurt him and he's glad scott doesn't seem to, since that's not what he meant. he does remember what akihiro had told him: how scott was coming from a particularly low place and to try and be patient with him. how if scott didn't care, he probably wouldn't still keep talking to him. )

i don't want to be a tool or a weapon, no. maybe that's why i'm here, but it's not what or who i want to be.

( why, while he doesn't realize it just yet, he tends to go it solo rather than join any teams. but that's something he'll [unfortunately] come to learn in the future at some point: how teams either want him for his power or to take his power for themselves. )

believe me when i say i'm being nice with saying this but i don't think you really know how to chill. i feel like you're always on guard, even if you don't realize it. i can't say i get it because i don't know everything you've been through but i know you've been through some hard stuff and so i can't really blame you for being that way when you're used to being that way.

i'm sorry that i get frustrated sometimes. i guess i'm just more reactive and you're more proactive.

[notrosecolored]

Reactive vs proactive is a good way of putting a lot of those differences.

Though for what it's worth, I don't want you to be a weapon or a tool, either.

[ There is... a lot more there, most of it not feeling like it needs a response but. ]

Logan once said I was a good war general and asked me if I knew how to turn it off.

I don't.

[overconfidently]

do you want to? that's not me offering anything. just honest curiosity.

[notrosecolored]

Sometimes. I used to most of the time. These days it mostly depends on who's around me and what they need.

[overconfidently]

( he'd say he and steve are alike in that way, but. he's just not going to. )

you sound like you need a serious vacation.

[notrosecolored]

Probably, but I've more or less gotten it worked out into something I can live with. I don't like it making me feel unreliable for you, though.

[overconfidently]

it's not entirely that it's just. i don't know. maybe we should just start over.

[notrosecolored]

Why? If it will help we can, I'm just curious

[overconfidently]

i don't know. i just don't want you to be disappointed in me.

[notrosecolored]

I'm not and I won't be.

[overconfidently]

ever? even with me being as reactive as i am?

[notrosecolored]

You might frustrate me or maybe even make me mad.

But I will never not be proud of you.

[overconfidently]

( oh no that's some real dad shit there.... )

thanks. that means a lot.

[notrosecolored]

My pleasure.

And thanks for reaching back out.

[overconfidently]

yeah. i'm glad i did.