notrosecolored | Duplicity Contact Post

I think a lot depends on who they were before the war - but I sure hope it's possible.

Do you trust her?

I was a kid too sick to get out of bed most days. That scares me more than war.

I trust her about as much as I do anyone here. I don't think she has much to gain from me but not ending up in jail so there's that.

This isn't the best place to learn to relax, but it's probably worth trying. It's a lot of things, but it's not an outright constant assault on your life.

Good.

Maybe someday I'll start feeling like its not.

Did you know there was a time when there was like acid rain and everyone's clothes melted? Literally?

Keeping myself busy by reading through the network was likely not my smartest idea but definitely an education.

I'm not ready to be naked in this place.

I read back through a lot of it. Maybe in this instance not really having had much practical experience with normal's a benefit.

A lot of things I've seen here have made me as angry as anything has, but the ballast of someone seeing 'mutant' and wanting me dead on sight seems to counterbalance it some. At least enough that I'm no more panicky than I was at home.

Maybe. I'm thankful for a lot here, mostly in comforts. Without the sex thing I'd probably be cool with it.

Yeah, I hadn't realized how much I had swallowed it all and gotten used to it until everyone here looks at me like I'm crazy for thinking I'm a freak.

I'm sorry your world was like that too.

We had a unit sentence me and my family to death because of me being a possible traitor. Turned out their commander was the traitor but the unit was willing to believe it because of me.

There are some differences between our worlds. We don't usually know what we are until we're somewhere around your age, and finding out is usually pretty violent and traumatic.

But no one made us what we are. It's manifesting something in us already.

And there's no war going on with us stuck needing to pick a side, the way there was for you.

Most importantly we're not alone.

Not being alone helps a lot with the freak thing.

That's the part that makes me so angry about your world. It's natural. It's literally what mankind has been doing since... forever. Just on a much faster scale.

Sometimes I get why people fear me. It makes me angry to think about them fearing you and Jean and everyone else in your world. It's so dumb.

Which yeah, life is dumb and not fair. Trust me. I know but still.

I'm glad you have others and hope you always have. I hope you always do.

Trust me. Being the only one left? Sucks.

In absolute defense of those people, people can and do die when kids manifest abilities. I nearly killed about a city block worth of people.

And yeah, the last one left isn't desirable. I spent a while with a too close look at someone who was only interested in the survival of the fittest. It's nasty. Having a community helps.

By no intent or choice of your own. A lot of people do things that can kill, and they do it intentionally and start wars and yet blaming children for something that happens naturally? Naw.

Be upset it happens but not at the kids that do it.

Unless you're going to tell me you intended to take out a city block. Which I don't believe.

Sometimes you don't have a choice though and just try and do the best you can with what community you have. What I'm trying here, and back home.

You're a good kid, Ben.

Glad someone thinks so. Thanks though.

I mean every word. People are assholes.

Usually. Sometimes, often, that includes me.

If you need somewhere to be in the middle of the night, come knock on my door. I'll probably be both awake and alone.

Can't say it doesn't include me either.

If you aren't alone, don't answer. Okay? Because you know being alone in this place is bad, right?
Wait, you're making quota, right?

[Oh how the tables have turned. ]

Yeah, I know, I've got everyone from home yelling it in my face too often for me to forget it.

I haven't failed it, yet. .

Yet. I like that word.
Not that I'm holding on to it but yeah.

It's a weird situation all around. Just try to be careful and strategic.

Careful and strategic. You got it.

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