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"Oh."

Well, that's certainly a direction to move off in, yes. Kurt hums thoughtfully crossing his arms loosely and tapping at his chin with a forefinger. It doesn't require that much thinking, really, but... Elaboration doesn't hurt, does it? So he figures out articulating that.

"A little, yes, but... I think it is--" He doesn't know the word for it, but he's sure there's a simple word to summarize the sensation. He can't recall it. "You know when you are able to click off? To leave yourself? Not in a terrifying way, but--" You know.

"I'm sure it is difficult for him to reach that place. I not suited to provide such a thing. I probably couldn't even watch someone else provide it, so..." Palms open to the air in front of him. It's out of his hands. What can you do but hope the reward is found and the risk remains minimal?

"Perhaps that is it, or perhaps the logic is different. I could probably talk in circles about it."

And that comes with a small laugh, just this side of exasperation or self-depreciation. Maybe he's more worried than he'd assumed.

Scott smiles, faint but with real amusement. Not mockery, just amusement. Some of it ironic, some of it understanding, none of it mean just...

"I think that state for me is usually called 'dissociation', but what you're describing for him is more subspace. It's not easy to get him there. Too much base level pain and distrust in his head to get there easily."

Which... He can provide for Logan and Logan has provided for him, but also:

"I'm more worried about the need for the party than the result of it."

"Well, yes, there's that," Kurt returns with a similar laugh to his last. Has he plucked at the wrong thread? Little matter, either way.

"It arises from what cannot be changed, doesn't it? I have worried over it, too, and I have nudged here and there and attempted to tidy up, but... The resolution is pending, ja? It's frustrating."

There is so much, everything just on the edge of crumbling, and the best he can provide for it himself is patience, steadiness, support. It feels so little, and he worries further that he's misjudged any moves he might make. Is it truly the wisest thing to observe and soothe, or is it some for of cowardice on his part? What else is there, even?

"It is a little while yet until things move forward, one way or the other."

For as many problems as they all have, and as much desire to help each other--

There's an equal amount of not wanting to impose with that help, much less accept it when it would help each other.

They're all a mess.

"Yeah. Do you want to stay here tonight or would you rather be alone?"

The invitation is unexpected, surprising in a way that settles warm and tingly and pleasant. It's that warmth, realizing that he's feeling a positive reaction to the offer, that stops him short of automatically begging off for that same fear of imposition.

"I would appreciate company, I think, if that it truly fine. It has been quiet, lately. Subdued. A little background noise or conversation might do me some good."

Should anything go sideways, if that's possible, he is easily-departed company, if nothing else.

If anything goes sideways, it will be something they'll deal with. If things go sideways with Logan...

They'll be in one place to deal with it easier.

"I wouldn't have asked you to stay if it weren't at least fine. It's too quiet here, too and I'd like your company."

Needs it, if he's honest.

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