[ Scott's warm, relaxed, turned on and enjoying the heat of Chris' mouth and the slow careful slide of his hands. Likes the texture of hair under his hands. He's flushed, hard, breathing easily and just a little bit faster than usual.
He's fine.
Until he's not.
There's no freak out involved. The point warmly turned on should (would) turn into sexual tension building toward release just doesn't happen. He can't get quite far enough out of his head or let go of enough physical control to let it happen. Too much awareness that he doesn't know Chris, of quota and consequences of both quota and of what happens if he really loses control, and -
just a lot of crap.
So rather than slowly building tension, a crescendo and release it's... slowly building tension, a plateau that holds and then turns into frustration.
And some new things to feel shitty about, but regardless he has to eventually, gently, tug Chris' hair.
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Date: 2022-03-08 08:04 pm (UTC)He's fine.
Until he's not.
There's no freak out involved. The point warmly turned on should (would) turn into sexual tension building toward release just doesn't happen. He can't get quite far enough out of his head or let go of enough physical control to let it happen. Too much awareness that he doesn't know Chris, of quota and consequences of both quota and of what happens if he really loses control, and -
just a lot of crap.
So rather than slowly building tension, a crescendo and release it's... slowly building tension, a plateau that holds and then turns into frustration.
And some new things to feel shitty about, but regardless he has to eventually, gently, tug Chris' hair.
]
This isn't going to work.
[ Does he sound guilty and strained? Yep. ]