[ Scott just basically dismisses the whole thing about him as a father. It's complicated, it's not all about him and he lacks the energy to get all of that into words. He'd probably choke and they'd be back to stream of consciousness blurting and exhausting himself with frustration-

and he lacks the desire to go there for a hypothetical ]

That makes sense. It isn't as though they were there to mean anything to you, or you remember who they were to miss, and the name sounds more like a burden than anything else.