Thanks. [ A nod. ] Back home, I'm a vigilante. It's not where I thought my life would go but I have no regrets. Of course to do that, I had to get the right training, so I did.
It's also something I've considered continuing here. To keep people safe in the Down.
[Chris takes a cue from his friend and moves to settle into his own chair, legs sprawled out ahead of him under the table. The table that once more unceremoniously receives the A dumped onto it.]
Well, then you ought tell someone who's not heard it -if that even matters, I guess- and get rid of the thing. Or turn it into a light catcher, that could be interesting. [Ever since he'd told Hythlodaeus to turn his reminder into a garden feature, Chris couldn't deny he was charmed with the idea of recycling these things.
That might be the other reason he was holding onto the dress.]
I sold it. Not behind her back or anything but I- [He pauses and thinks out the line of his explanation. Could he get away with this without explaining fully? Probably. Scott wouldn't press if Chris made the line clear.
Did the line matter? Cinder said yes, if he wanted it to. If only he knew if he wanted it to.]
It was a piece of clothing, which I know doesn't sound like much, but it represented everything she expected and hoped I'd be. I didn't live up to it quite right, so it needed to go and I slipped the coin back to her for her trouble.
[He's quiet a moment, but then cuts eyes back over to Scott.]
They're trying to use this to force emotional intimacy. I think the event itself happening is probably not what they're looking for. I might turn it into a key chain, though. [ A really big one, but whatever.
He says that much as a means of bridging some of the gap - processing time - between Chris finishing talking and Scott responding to it. He needs a bit to put things together, there, based not just on this revelation but what he already knows about Chris, interactions they have had, and the world he came from.
It doesn't take him very long, but it definitely comes with a look that Kurt described as 'almost being able to see numbers running across the quartz'. ]
Okay.
[ Underwhelming probably, but he's pretty sure he's got most of this now and that's just recognition of it. But.]
What do you regret about doing it that way and what is the plan for it now? Is there a plan?
[ On one hand - great, fantastic, clear signal she's willing to push back when he gets there and organized enough to make a meaningful impact instead of getting people ...worse than killed. On the other- ]
Sound plan. You might want to leave the big stick out of it and use a mask.
[Chris' smile widens and he shakes his head. That keychain thing would be a terrible idea, but if Scott did it, he'd laugh.
Then Scott's quiet and Chris is patient, either he'd get it and they'd move on, or he'd not and they'd still move on because Chris wasn't of a mind to explain further. Luckily, it seems he doesn't have to.]
What I regret's got more to do with her and there's little I can do for it here -if I even should. The plan for it's...still working. Got a suggestion to tailor it into something else, but I'm not sure. [There's a pause and Chris shoots Scott an amused look.] What would you do with a dress that you don't want to sell but don't want to keep? Aside from maybe a keychain.
If I'd ever seen you wear anything that was that colorful, I'd suggest a cloak or cape. [ Unless Chris is colorful and just wearing dark shades of those colors ] Since you I haven't - probably leave it hanging in my closest for a couple of decades then impulsively give it to someone important to me.
And the people in my life now might not be the people in my life later. [ Not an implication about sexuality, at all, just that these things aren't static. ] Especially here, though I can understand not wanting to leave it hanging around and weighing on your mind, too.
[ There is a few minutes of delay before he replies, while he slams up every mental shield he has - the 'keep Phoenix out' level of layers one - because he wants no one (Jean or Nate) near his immediate, intense, rage and panic.
He doesn't so much talk himself down as he shoves all those emotions in a box, get nauseated, have the pain behind his eyes spike to something that would make someone without chronic nasty headaches throw up, faint, or both, and generally has a god awful emotional response.
me either. i know he asked about people switching from one to the other that one time. can't say for sure if that's what did it or not. some higher up saw and changed it. i don't know. sort of weird to call it coincidence is all but i guess he got what he wanted.
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